I'm Fat and Tired

Sis, I love FAT People!

Now before you clutch your pearls or wonder if I’m crazy (tho, at this point, I might be)—let me explain.

My husband was known at work for encouraging the team to be “FAT”:

“It’s good to be FAT—Faithful, Available, and Teachable.” And whew, that little phrase is hitting heavy in this season.

A few weeks ago, we sat our daughter down and we talked about what it really means to be teachable. Not just in class, but in life. We told her—“Baby, life has a way of enrolling you in courses you never signed up for. And if you’re not teachable, life will humble you real quick.” There are some classes/lessons you cannot opt out of.

Ask me how I know.

Because right now, life is teaching me through pain.

And not the cute kind—the chronic kind.

Since March 13, 2025, I’ve been in an uninterrupted battle with my body. Like it is betraying me. For over 100 days, I’ve needed help to walk. To stand. To function. My flesh feels fragile, my prayers feel unanswered—and yet, my faith is anchored.

Why? Because I’m choosing—intentionally, imperfectly—to stay FAT.

Let’s break it down:

🟣 Faithful — even when healing hasn’t come. Even when the test results don’t change. Even when my knees wobble and my prayers feel weak. I'm faithful to His promise, not my pain. I trust God’s plan even when my faith feels like wavering.

🟢 Available — to God’s purpose, even in this pit. Not busy. Not buried in burnout. Just surrendered. Saying, “Here I am, Lord. Use me—even if I’m limping.” And I am.

🔵 Teachable — because pain is a professor. And if I’m gonna suffer, I’m going to learn something. I want God to use this to grow me, prune me, and prepare me. I don’t want to come out of this valley the same. I’m Growing in Grace.

Let’s be real, sis: we know how to perform. We know how to press. But if we’re not careful, we’ll confuse performance with purpose—and push past the very process God is using to heal us.

When I’m not FAT, I’m:

Stuck in striving.
Drowning in disappointment.
Dismissive of what God’s trying to develop in me.

But when I posture my heart to be Faithful, Available, and Teachable—even in the discomfort—I begin to see God show up in the smallest spaces.

In a kind word from a friend.In a burst of laughter when my body feels heavy.In a gentle nudge from the Holy Spirit that says, “You’re not forgotten. You’re being formed.”

So sis… how FAT are you?

Are you faithful even when you’re frustrated?

Are you available or just avoiding?

Are you teachable—or tired of the test?

Because listen—being FAT isn’t flashy. It’s not loud.It’s not always celebrated.But it’s where the real growth happens.

It’s easy to say “Yes, Lord” when your body feels strong, when the blessings are flowing, when your plans align. But what about when everything hurts? What about when the timeline stretches longer than your hope? What about when you’re stuck in the middle—between what God promised and what you still don’t see?

That’s where the FAT ones rise. That’s where we decide to feel, deal, and heal—without rushing the process. That’s where transformation takes root.

So before you move on with your day, I want you to sit with this:

A Moment of Reflection:

"Where in my life am I resisting what God is trying to reveal? What lesson might this pain be pointing me to—and how can I stay FAT in the process?"

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Today’s Affirmation:

"I am FAT—Faithful, Available, and Teachable. My pain will not paralyze me. My process is not punishment. My posture is praise. I am rooted in God’s plan, even when I don’t understand the path. I am learning, I am healing, and I am whole—one surrendered step at a time."

Time to Get FAT:

Sis, Don’t just survive—STAY FAT and LIVE BEYOND.

📍Journal through your journey.

📍Affirm your alignment with God.

📍Stay available to His assignments—even in affliction.

There’s healing in the valley and victory in the waiting. God is not just after your comfort—He’s after your character.

A Promise of Hope:

Your current pain is not your permanent position. Your body may be weak, but your faith is a weapon.God isn’t punishing you—He’s positioning you.He’s pruning, preparing, and proving that even this season has purpose.

So no matter how slow the steps… know this:

Your steps are still ordered. And so are mine.We’re not walking alone.We’re walking with the One who heals, holds, and honors every surrendered “yes.”

What I’m Looking Forward To:

In October, I am going to be presenting at the Rest, Revive and Restore Retreat. It is an absolute honor to be chosen to support women on their journey toward wellness. Spending time at Imiloa last Fall was refreshing and life changing. If you want to know more about how I prioritized rest and self-care click below.

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